This was me about a week before my lap band surgery in June 2012. I was wearing a 5XL shirt and my pants were at least a 4X maybe larger. And my sturdy, butt ugly Crocs because they were the only shoe my diabetic feet found comfort in.
Looking back at this person makes me cringe but this is how I looked like a year and two months ago. And I thought, at the time, I looked great.
A year and three months later, I think I looked hideous. I know I felt awful and I just do not want to even go there anymore. I makes me sad to think I was just existing on a day-to-day basis. I was even larger when I had started my gig in December 2011. You also cannot see it but my ankles/lower leg area was also bright red from my diabetes.
What I am happy about is I will no longer be:
- THAT unhappy
- THAT miserable
- THAT overweight
- THAT fugly
- THAT uncomfortable
- THAT unhealthy
Every single day NOW, I wake up with the choice to follow the lap band rules or to not follow them. Never do I ever want to look that horrible ever again. I still have a long road ahead of me but at least I’m doing something positive about it.