Here’s the Latest Happenings

With the end near of 2018, so many thoughts and memories come to mind. Despite not feeling well from Spring to October 18th, I really did have an awesome year. I started volunteering at an awesome bookstore. I even attempted to tutor but it didn’t work out. I met new friends and I joined a Murderino podcast/meet up group in February.

I also happened to drop 74 pounds in 2018. And got healthier and happier than I had been in years. I really did love my life in 2018.

In regards to my life-saving surgery on Oct. 23rd: Everything outwardly has closed up nicely. It appears that the healing has ended its course minus the edema is still in my legs (10 lbs left to shed). Between now through Feb. 12th, I am to allow my body on the inside to now heal and to not try to lose any weight until after 2/12/19. Mentally and emotionally, I have not processed ANY of this. My short-term memory is still splotchy and I was told, I may not ever recover anything from 2-months ago.

The photo on the right is from Friday, December 21st. As you can see, I still have fluid in my legs, making them a lot thicker than normal but overall, I was feeling good that day when the photo was taken.

I am still trying to figure out this new stomach of mine too. Unlike what I was trained to have — the lap band from 2012 to Oct. 23rd of this year … I knew what I could and could NOT eat. I thought I had a routine and I thought it was somewhat working for the best for me, especially since December 2017.

With only having 15% of my stomach now… I can surprisingly eat foods I couldn’t eat for the past 6 years. My new stomach also tells me extremely quickly when I need to stop eating and that I am full. I can eat up to 6 small meals per day. I always always always eat breakfast now. I never knew how important eating right away in the morning was until I had my surgery two months ago. I tend to eat my lunches not quite at my former times around 11:30AM… I tend to eat it later after the norm.

Also prior to this new stomach, eating oranges or any type of citrus fruits really upset my stomach. New stomach, I eat a lot of oranges. In fact, HyVee, here in Sioux Falls, currently has 4-pounds of oranges for a cheap price of $1.77 per bag this week. I bought three bags. And lately, I’ve been cutting up 4 oranges at a time and eat them as a healthy snack.

The photo to the left, is my healed up incision that is located below my breasts but above my belly button.

Today, December 27th, I have been alive 65 days.


A Conversation Last Night

I had a conversation with someone last night about my recent weight loss. She said something about people usually lose a lot of weight in the beginning, not so much in the end… but with me… when I got the lap band done, they didn’t fill up my lap band with very much saline at first, I told her.

Unlike gastric bypass or with a mutual friend of ours and her sleeve surgery, you lose rapidly right away… then it dramatically slows down. With the lap band, it’s the opposite. Starts mega slow and depending on how you follow the strict lap band rules and how many fills you get… that determines how much you lose, etc.

From 2013, a year after my lap band to 2017 I did not have any fills in my lap band at all… because I didn’t either have insurance or my insurance wasn’t the same as Avera and a lot of cost would have been through the roof so i never followed up on getting any done so my weight loss was slow and agonizing…..End of 2017 I had 2 more fills and on the last of those 2, I had my final fill that my lap band would allow.

That’s when I was dropping weight like magic. And that’s where I am at now…. With my current job, I have amazing insurance and both fills were covered 100% so I didn’t have to pay anything out of pocket.

Plus I’m a year and a half in on my Wheat Belly lifestyle. You know, I gave up eating toxic processed shit food for the good of my health.

I hope this clears up your confusion I wrote her today. But ask me anything, I’ll do my best to give you my honest opinion.

Happiness to me means. . .

Photo from Custer, SD on Sept. 2nd

I just returned home from a 4-day vacation to the Black Hills (in South Dakota) and brought back some nice goodies.

Go ahead and ask me question: WHAT DOES HAPPINESS MEAN TO YOU?

Buying T-shirts in a size LARGE!!!!!

Last Labor Day weekend 2017, in the Black Hills, I came home with hoodies and T-shirts in the size 2XL.

Baby steps people. And I am a huge fan of the Wheat Belly lifestyle. It does work really really well if you follow the rules and if you FOLLOW THE RULES!!!!

Continue to make great choices my friends. Peace out.

Why am I so insecure????

RIVERFEST, downtown Sioux Falls, SD on August 18, 2018

I am not seeking compliments. I’m not. At. All. But today on my 2nd break, I was outside enjoying the gorgeous cooler weather. When it was my time to go in, I made my way to the doors and I saw someone say something to me. She made a reference with her hands and said, “You’re getting skinnier every time I see you.” And then I said, “Really?” in utter disbelief as I patted my belly. And she said, “Oh we all have that.” … She made another sweep of her hands and said, “You keep getting smaller and smaller both front and to the sides.”

I haven’t been weighed since June 29th at my doctor’s office. I know I’m still shrinking by the clothes I’ve been putting on and taking off immediately because they are literally falling off my body. I am curious though. But I also don’t see myself as getting skinnier and skinnier.

I see a lot, no, a ton of saggy, loose skin from my upper arms, from my once triple chin, from my thighs…. and finally from my belly area where I feel the most insecure.

This is not the exact “style” that I wear but I bought all of my Spanx from Catherine’s. They, too, are getting a lot bigger for me in size wise. But they are extremely expensive and I am making them work.

Thankfully since 2012, I found several Spanx-like tank tops that I wear over my bra but under my clothes to hold everything in neatly and smoothly. I wear them all the time with the exception of bedtime, swimming and in the bath/shower. Otherwise every day since my surgery on June 27, 2012, I’ve sported one.

Today I wore a shirt that has hung in my closet since January of this year. When I bought it, it was too small so I was hoping by becoming of summer it’d fit. Today was the first time I put it on since January. It literally hung off my shoulders. But I looked in the mirror and while it was too big, the way it fell made it look like a long tunic. So I wore some black leggings underneath… and got several compliments on the “outfit.”

So a week from now, I’ll be celebrating Labor Day weekend in the Black Hills again. I had so much fun and relaxation last Labor Day when we went. However, majority of my summer clothes including my jean shorts are all too big for me. I am hoping that it may be a little cooler there than hot so I do have some smaller sizes to try out. However, this is the last time I’ll be able to wear any of these clothes. Yes, it’s all good news and seriously I AM VERY HAPPY that I am still shrinking and will soon need new clothes but I love the clothes I currently have. They are trendy and cute.Β Such worries eh?

Is anyone watching Castle Rock on Hulu? Let’s discuss.




You’ve Got Mail

I’ve been on vacation for the past 9 days so I had all of my mail held at the post office. After work today I ran downtown to pick it up.

Driving home, I thumbed through everything and saw an unfamiliar handwriting with a stamped returned address that I did not recognize.

Thinking it was a birthday card, since my 51st is July 17th, I put it aside to not open till next week. Once home, I looked at the envelope again and realized since I didn’t recognize the return address at all, this was not a birthday card.

So this beautiful card came out of the envelope. It reads “You are amazing… Don’t ever forget it.” Opening it up, to my great surprise, wonderful sentiments from my No. 1 Provider ever: Lori Ranek, PA-C from the Bon Homme Family Clinic in Tyndall (SD). My No. 1 cheerleader, truth-teller, hero.

Besides verbal words of encouragement and praise from Lori and several other ah-mazing providers, this is my first real piece of confirmation from a provider that took the time out of their busy medical lives to sit down, write something down, place a stamp on it and mail it, that I have ever received.

How lucky am I?